Sunday, July 24, 2011

Kriya and Puja

Back from the end of a course not having done my kriya feeling tired. Reached after a long walk and a last minute Rickshaw, not having told anyone the real reason I had to leave so quickly (don't bother guessing, well actually u can but i wont tell :) ) Finally after the delay of the entire a day did my Kriya and this post came up ready made.....

Often I have heard Guruji and many teachers say 'Puja' means that which is born out of completeness or fullness. Today while doing Kriya I remembered something. "Sit to do your Kriya with an attitude of Gratitude" but even when I was getting through First stage of Pranayam "Gh**** gratitude how do I deal with all the pain that has been building in my for the entire day" and now it has reached a peak after something that happened at the course. Suddenly I couldn't feel the pain in my legs (General effect of Vajrasan, especially since I was sitting on a chair) as it was replaced by a pain in my heart region for a moment I thought I had a heart attack but realized it wasn't almost the next moment.

I could feel all the sadness and pain accumulated over the years that I have managed to hide with quick smiles and acting stupid started coming up. Some of the things that I had REALLLLYYYYYYY wanted to hide even from myself started coming to the front. By this time I had lost all control, half way through Second stage of Pranayam I started breathing normal breaths instead of Ujjai breaths. Now I though this embarrassing, what I didn't realize was the Really embarrassing thing is yet to come. Almost in tears because of all the suppressed memories I was not even sure I would be able to continue any further, I was just moving forward.

Somehow I managed to get back into Ujjai before finishing Second stage itself. Hear is where something interesting started happening. Even though the pain was still there I remembered what I had heard on Guru Purnima this year. Suddenly there was no effort in Third Stage and Bhastrika and the pain intensified, with tears from my eyes and mucus from my nose and sweat forming a horrible mixture on my face which very thankfully I could not feel because of the pain. The actual Kriya was a different experience all together something had changed dramatically and after a short meditation I got up and was already ready with this post in my Mind.

Now the important part, the knowledge that came to my rescue in my time of need. Mahesh Giriji had said that "We offer flowers, fruits, 'chandan' etc while doing the Guru Puja but you should do something else. Offer your anger, offer your Jealousy, offer all the negative qualities and you'll see that Puja happens by itself and such a Puja will be higher then any other simple Guru Puja". Today I was able to apply this.

Coming back to the starting of the post
So for the first time on this blog I am going to give everyone a task to experiment on. Here's the deal if you can't sit with an Attitude of Gratitude, gather all your anger, hatred, jealousy,greed, fear, laziness and sit for doing your short Sudarshan Kriya. After you finish your 3 rounds of slow-medium-fast just offer it to......... whoever you want, it doesn't really matter. Do tell me your experience, waiting to hear from you all (comment hear or mail me)

Jai Gurudeva,
P.S. Please excuse the length of the post :)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011


Now awaiting my Graduation results so nothing much to give here. A course with Anjana Di today in Thane(Yeaaaaa) and DSN with the ultimate duo Bawa N Dinesh, also in Thane (*Lack of words to express excitement*) . A few jokes i got from here and there

Girlfriend(to boyfriend): What can u do for me?
Boyfriend : anything!!!!
Girl : Can u leave ur family for me?
Boy : Yes
G : Bring me money, clothes, jewelry as much as i want?
B : Yes
G: Get me stars, the moon, the sun?
B: Yes
G: Delete ur Facebook account?
B: Now really !! You ask too much

After the death of his wife, man asks friend " Quick get me a laptop"
Friend asks "Why?"
"I want to set my status to Single"

A boy was walking on road in the rain a girl comes to him and says why don't U share my
Boy- No thanks sister I like it this way

Moral............ nothing the Girl was not good looking :)

Jai Gurudeva,

Monday, July 4, 2011

Story Time

Well its story time again and this time I got a Love story (ooooowww) Without further adieu let the story begin

Some seriously long time ago, when India was under the rule of the Moghul Emperors, in a small village came a young man barely above mid twenties for some work. He stayed there for two months, during that period he fell in love with a local girl and she loved him as well, only her love for him was beyond that of just the regular long gazing in eyes and romantic talks and all the other silly things that people in love so often do. When his work was over he left the village suddenly and no one could tell of whereabouts. The girl, now madly in love lost all sense and of what others would call sanity.
She left the village to find her lover, having lost her mind on her lover, she would ask ever person she passed about him but she didn't stop there she would ask every tree, every animal, every bird that she could, not a single rock did she pass without asking the location of her lover. Walking, walking, searching, searching, she was lost in a forest.
In the same forest was the then emperor of India, out for a hunt with his royal guard with him. In the evening it was time for Namaz. Now this an emperor sitting so of course there was a royal, silk mattress with the finest quality cushion. With guards waiting at one side the emperor began his reading.
Then suddenly the love struck girl marched into his camp and walked past him. This angered the guards, who caught her immediately. The emperor himself was outraged at the disrespect this lowly woman had shown him and towards his most sacred text.
At the height of his anger he asked her "Who do you think you are to insult me while I am praying you lowly woman, to disrespect my Namaz is to disrespect GOD himself..". Before the emperor could continue the woman asked "Is your God important to you? do you love HIM?
The Emperor replied with a prompt 'Yes' Despite being chained and at the mercy of the emperor the girl laughed and said "What love do you speak of? when a lowly girl like me is loving just an ordinary man and so lost that she couldn't even see an emperor, whereas your love for God was so short that you saw this lowly girl just because she passed you by. This is your love for God? Even now your ignoring your lover for a lowly girl and you claim to love God?"
Hearing this the Emperors angered shattered and shards of shame fell on him. He released the girl and immediately sat for Namaz.

Here the tale comes to an awkward end, most would expect a love story to be something different but this is the kind of story that awakens you to a new reality. Where do we spend our time, how involved are we in every act we do, are we really being 100%, to go out of our "hectic" schedules and spend time with those whom we love, to actually Live life rather than get through it
I end this post with a line from Guruji
"Love is not just an emotion, it is your very being"

Jai Gurudeva,